Hey Blogegrs,


Sorry its been like a couple days since ive posted anything. Ive been super busy. So ive been battleing  with something for about 3 months now. I have this freind that Ive been bestfriends with since my jr year in highschool so that 5 years mayb 6. Anyways we were like the only two from are group to stay in touch and close. We use to do everything together and now things ahve totally changed. We text here and there but nothing special and i try to make plans but at the last minute she always cancels or spometimes I dont hear back at all. Its really sad because I dont have to many close friends like her that I thought I could count on. Ive been in my new place for over 2 months now and she hasnt been here once, Seriously what kind of bullshit is that! and its not like i havent invited her over cause I have several times. and when we text Im always like "I miss you its been so long we need to chill" and her response is :i knowwwww I miss you too" okay than how come you havent made the effort to come over and hang out? exactly I think the conclusion is were not that close of friends anymore. Latley when I ask her what shes up to shes always like oh nothing than why dont you come hang out and we can do somemthing and than she'll be like oh I have plans with Rachel who is a co-worker from her job that she supposivly hates so much. I just dont know anymore. We have been saying we want to take a raod trip and all of a sudden her and RAchel are planning one and did she bother to invite me???? NOPE like does that even make sence. not  to me it doesnt. so latley Ive kind of just given up I dont text her I wait for her to text me and even then I dont have a full convosation with her its not worth is anymore,Sometimes I want to break down and cry over it but I honestly dont feel like its worth it at all. Im not a mean person so Im not gonna bad mouth her but I feel like the reason why shes hanging with this other girl from work is because she doesnt know who she wants to be in life and shes just going around  and trying out each personality she can shadow. There was this girl named Taylor from her job and she was like good friends with her and now she doent even talk to her anymore i know i have a weird look on my face too just thinking about it. I dont know anymore but I dont think Im gonna get invloved anymore. I have my boyfriend , my sister , my cousin jeva, and now my long lost cousin ALYSSA is back in the picture and it feels like old times. My life is great and i dont want anyone in it messing it up and making it like their own, a big confused MESS!